balance.

i need a good balance. for whatever reason, i go crazy if my life is not balanced well. i just can't handle it. between trying to balance school work, internship work, personal life and various other things i usually feel like my life is just plain chaotic. i am finding that i need a lot of separation of my spheres of life in order for me to think clearly. my mind (without all the busy work) is a little chaotic on its own...

i am so much more sane when my life is more simple. obviously, life is complicated and always will be. but i don't think i should have to feel like i'm constantly going through the wringer, should i? ok, so the word says that there will trouble. ok, cool. but still. something's not right.

i need school to be school, work to be work and home to be home. i am wondering whether or not vocational campus ministry is for me. the more i experience it, the more i don't really like it, at least in the way i'm doing it now. i LOVE my discussion group and i LOVE meeting with people. i want to do more ministry like that. i think that maybe i am good at those things. i feel like God uses me in those things.

i'm not gonna lie, this overall quarter has not been enjoyable. and worse, i feel like i'm complaining a lot. (sorry if you've had to hear about it all quarter.) i am learning a lot about things, about myself, about life... so that is good...

blah.