life is moving along rather quickly. i like it that way, at least for now. the sooner i can be done with school, the better! i can already feel the stress lifting. glorious.
i've been thinking a lot about "wholeness" this quarter and what it means for me. it seems that many parts of my life are coming together in a way i haven't experienced before. it feels pretty darn good.
we had a holy spirit party at church on saturday night. i received some victory for some things as well as an overwhelming sense of peace and joy. corrie prophesied over me that art and music are in my future and that my stage from which to speak would be bigger than i ever imagined. i'll take it.
i'm still thinking about scotland. just checking my motives now... actually, that might be a lie. i think i know what i need to do, but i am just worried. maybe i just need to suck it up and get some faith.
i love my house. it has been so great to get to know everyone better and grow together this quarter. there is so much joy and life in this house. being here has more than changed my life.
a random thought from this morning: i am a huge idealist at heart, but i try to make myself into a realist, thinking that it is somehow better. i am a big dreamer, but i am realizing that i tend to downplay a lot of my big dreams and ideas because i want to be "sensible" or something. i think i can hold myself back in that way. i don't want to do that anymore. i think it would be better to dream big, go after those dreams and fail miserably than to do nothing about them at all.
looking forward to these things this quarter: the shins and alexi mudoch concerts (among others), cafe night, writing my last college papers, taking my last finals, going to canada for beeky's birthday, campus harvest, and family vacay at the grand cayman islands!
you know you have great friends when you can spend two years apart, come back together and have the same bond. it was great to get reconnected with these fabulous people over break, most of whom i don't talk to regularly. it was good to realize how much they have enriched my life and how much i miss them!
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