figuring things out.

i think that this blog has become a place for me to think through some things as i figure out who i am. it is very interesting to me. i have been thinking a lot about what i am going to do after i graduate. i want to do something that i love and that i would be good at. but i don't even know what that is. i think i need to understand who i am better before i jump into a "career" or something. i feel like derek zoolander looking into the puddle and asking himself, "who am i?" after losing the slashie award to hansel. it's kinda strange to reach a point in life and realize that you don't really know what you are good at or interested in. for some, it's always been obvious. for me, it hasn't seemed so obvious. but i am starting to see my true personality come out and it's a bit different than i thought, or at least different than i tried to make it be. maybe it's that i always knew what i love, but always felt like there were more practical things i could be doing. it's not clear yet, but there are a few things i am learning.

so now here are some things i know--some basic, some not--things that i feel are true to the truest me: i am a child of God. i am a daughter. i am a sister. i am a friend. i am a mentor. i am an artist. i am a writer. i am a musician. i am a counselor. i am a listener. i am an encourager. i love people. i love family. i love music. i love culture. i love diversity. i love adventure. i love to travel. i love to express myself. i value honesty. i value truth. i value vulerability. i value unconventionality. i need balance. i need grace. i need peace. i need intimacy. i want to make a difference. i want to serve. i want to love. i want to live. i want to be with God, to know Him, and glorify Him with my life.

i'm sure i will add to this later. but i think this might be a good starting point.